Born @ 3:01am on Thurs. March 26, 2009
Weight: 8lbs 8oz
Length: 19 in.
What looked like a labor that might have lasted 8 hours start to finish, wound up to be a 24 hour experience. Right from the starting gate, surges came frequently and gained in intensity as each hour passed. Having practiced Hypnobirth breathing & meditation diligently since 6 months of pregnancy, I was able to stay very calm with no fear or anxiety. Using Rainbow Relaxation coupled with the support of my loving husband and wonderful doula, I was able to breathe through the surges and zone out almost entirely. I went so totally inward, that many times my husband had to speak on my behalf. At one point my he joked I looked completely high. I don't remember large portions of my labor and had to have my husband relay most of the details (especially time lines) for this story.
After about 19 hours of active labor with dilation stalled at 6.5 cm, physical exhaustion began to set in. Surges came one on top of the other and became very difficult to deal with. After MUCH consideration, I relented and opted for an epidural to accompany the pitocin suggested by our midwife, in order to help with progression. Even after the meds, I insisted on a few hours rest before pushing and continued sleep breathing and playing soft music in the background. Three hours later, I was fully dilated and he was ready to roll. The nurses and midwife kept saying it might take hours of pushing, but my little guy came within 40 minutes. I don't remember too much right after that - only my placenta flying out and the sound of my poor baby being poked and prodded violently by a team of ambivalent nurses. After what seemed like forever, they put my baby in my arms. It was surreal and wonderful all at once. I could go on and on about amazing those moments were, but I digress.
The real point here is this: I am totally convinced that I could not have managed my labor without the Mongan method. And this is coming from a someone who might be considered a *little* sarcastic and cynical. Initially, it sounded kind of new-age and cheesy to me. But after giving it a fair chance with practice and Tricia's classes, I'm true believer. This method allowed me to get as close as I could to having my "ideal" birth experience - even with all the circumstances beyond my control. Learning to let go allowed me to hold on.